self-love post

 So I live in my grandfather's house now. I love everything here - the dusty bottle of dishwashing liquid, dirty curtains, big fur trees howling in the wind when I look outside of the window. Coffee drinking in the evening. Dreaming. I love my new edition of Bhagavad-Gita, I started to read it aloud from the beginning and now I'm still at the beginning of Chapter 2... it really helps a lot. 

It's amazing how the relationships and the frequencies of others are a bit magical. Or can be made magical. Can be thought more beautiful. When you meditate and open your eyes and see a human person walking outside, it's just wonderful how they have their pace... light shining on their face, maybe them not even noticing that...

So I wanted to make a blog in my mother's house - they have a separate house - about her health, but she said telepathically that she's not ready yet. That it is too fast. Please slow down. They are all the time in a hurry... so yes, I agree, it is good to slow down. Why not.

We have all the time in the world :) It's very complex game of hers... nobody can understand that yet...

I noticed one awesome thing about the TV. My grandfather has a biiiig new TV. I noticed you can put your own USB there. So instead of news program you can now get your favorite kirtan, chanting together. I used that option and we pray and sing together in the morning. They are my group. This is my family.

I noticed that together with going on to a plant-based diet and following Bhagavad-Gita and it's beautiful songs, I no longer wish to listen to this bad TV shows full of aggressive screaming. I used to love them. Now I love this chanting more... it is really good for the soul and for the body and it makes me so happy...

I remember my first chanting experience... it was in a yoga camp... I was just enlightened that spring, I let go of university and everything... then I go to this yoga camp... and they had this kirtan with this harmonium! I instantly got sooooo happy! The best day in my life :)