family and feeling good

So I have now arranged them, they really are a source of inspiration, an inspiration to write, to explore, to communicate to different realms, to explore intuition, trust and healing. I have a few extra that don't have a place yet. It is alright, it took me a while to find places for the first ones also.

Limiting belief systems is an obstacle, sometimes we just aren't ready to explore any further, we are capable to go as far as we are... yet even this set of crystals expands my horizons quite a bit, creating this tiny small cozy atmosphere, helping and healing the painful areas around me.

During their first days with me, they took in so much pain from my parents and ancestors, I had to leave them alone for a while, not even wanting to touch that pain. Now that waiting period is over and together with these crystals we have been able to get through to the next point.

I am happy to be connected to humans and human fields, it is exciting and fun for me, I even remember fun days at school now... it was quite exciting. What has caused me a lot of worry has indeed been human society, their pains, worries, trousers etc... Worry causes further pain and to get out of that cycle, we have to indeed address a different frequency and approach with a vibe that is pleasant, that feels pleasant.

I remember my last set of crystals, we were even in a cave together with Minna and child, and i had those, they just were with me... the heart chakra crystal even had a connection with a dove that lived on the top of that cave. Amazing how sometimes nature works through the heart... I'm most thankful for Minna and my both children, they are such an awesome vibration to enter my life.

So this crystal place is a little bit hidden from my children now, Timm had the fastest ability in the world to destroy the most precious ones fast.... So I feel it is good that they don't yet find them all... So they are far away from each other now, my crystals and my children now. A little bit fast and unexpected they can be, my children... I remember at Hare Krishna church on Tenerife island, I had to keep Timm away from the altar when we were there together with Minna, I was worried he might go to the altar and do something.... it felt like a holy place that is not allowed to be destroyed by our child.

Well in Estonian Christian churches Timm indeed has been climbing stairs and even approaching the altar...I got him fast so that he wouldn't disturb the area.... I was told as a kid that in the church there is this sacred area that you are not allowed to go in. So I did all I could to keep Timmi away from that. I think he doesn't have these boundaries and he might just climb over the holiest wall or something. That is physically prohibited for him by his father.

Other than that, we have been getting along pretty well... he most enjoyes pushing me over and visiting food shops together.... he was also a big fan of being thrown into air... last time they were here with his younger brother Hugo, my another son, they also started ceiling walking... you have to hold them and walk with them so that they can also walk upside down on the ceiling... this they somehow loved a lot.

I feel like they are not fighting against society even, so maybe not go towerbusting together with orgonite I think. These would be suitable rough crystals maybe for him, but they love even cars! So no rebel warrior mode against society with them I do know. Maybe they are just learning about the world, my sister thought, not yet fully understanding all but happy to explore.

I would love to be loved, and my children have given so far the most love to me. This is why I love them the most as well. Now, instead my peaceful grandfather is taking care of me, giving coffee and breakfast every morning. He notices crystals but again it looks like he doesn't know them at all, he found one by accident and asked what it was. Somehow I have to fit into his space now, together with all of my crystals and my new digital piano. This is also the home where my father and his younger brother grew up.

I am now helping Minna's mother with her new book, and I'm thinking this could be fun. I really feel I am happy to have her as part of our family.